I take great pride in being capable of being very direct and to the point. Service delivery, insurance, no-code/low-code, and leadership, are all in my comfort zone. If I had to choose, I would say that communication and leadership are my forte.

Everyone has a small devil next to his ears whispering “Are you really good enough? Do others think I have no clue what I am talking about?“. I am no different: my impostor syndrome is that I never was a developer myself. I did low-code development, I designed applications, led development teams, and designed enterprise architecture: but I have never actually written it myself. People working with me assume I know a lot more (I do fake it often!) – but the syndrome is real. I am in huge fear and doubt just by putting these words, admitting the lack of knowledge on a blog that no one reads. “Would it not be better if I would just do the learning in secret, behind four walls, and later act as I have always known?” is going through my mind. I am shaping it off.

Around ’23 Oct I felt that now is as good time as any to act on it and decided that I should learn Java. Where I work now does have a Java backend team and I have a Java architect in my team: they can help me find a demo project to learn on and if I am stuck I have people to turn to.

I plan to document my Road to Java RTJ: things I wonder about, courses I take, and interesting notes I learn.